I have recently added a new word to my vocabulary. It is an easy word to spell and say, but comes with so many negative connotations that most women shy away from it. We feel guilty. We just want to be liked. We don't want to cause any trouble. No. Those two letters used to scare the shit out of me.
I, like many other I know will over commit, do things we don't want to, even rock some parachute pants if it means we will keep feathers from ruffling. I have been on countless second dates even though the first dates were atrocious! In the age of Facebook, Twitter, and Foursquare it's hard to just disappear. Why is this? I think women in general, and me specifically, don't like disappointing people. I want to have everyone like me, and used to think the worst feeling in the world was knowing someone was mad at me. But you know what the worst feeling in the world is? Doing something you don't want to....and didn't have to!
It's only been very recently that I have been liberated by the word "no". I go where I want, when I want, and with whom I want. I am not some heartless bitch who won't do any favors, but I definitely don't let people take advantage of me anymore. No longer do I live in fear of disappointing others, because I am no longer living my life for anyone but myself. And that is the greatest feeling ever, I totally recommend it! Killing everyone with kindness only leads to you slowly killing yourself.
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